We are in week 4 of running and I made it 4 miles on our long run Saturday! It still isn't an easy 4 miles (and yes, there is some walking in there), and I have a long way to go, but I am all about small accomplishments. Though the running hasn't seemed to get "easier," I do feel better after my runs now. It does feel really good to be active again, oh how long it had been!
I don't know if it is the running or the stress, but it has me reflecting on life. I do this often, and I always feel stunned by the timeline of events and strange order of things in my life. I happen to be one of those people who have been blessed with many wonderful people and events in my life, and yet many of them have had strange timing. I like to think of this as fate. This is something I try to remember when I feel like life isn't going my way. Because all of my timing is funny, a lot of things feel like hardship, but when I remember that it has all worked out for me so far, I know that everything will be all right.
Reflecting on the positive has been very necessary for me this year. Both individually and as a family there have been a lot of trials to face this year. A lack of work, the loss of beloved pets, financial woes, and personal struggles. And yet, I have my beautiful children, an amazing husband, supportive family, the job I have always wanted. While it has been easy to feel discouraged, it is interesting and comforting to know that in the wake of all the bad, it seems like it is all moving towards the good. I think I can live with that. Running has reminded me that I have a lot of inner strength, and that I need to push myself, but also that I need to give myself a break too. Enough of all the deep stuff, have a great week everyone!
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